My Christian faith resurrected?

I was a Christian for almost 20 years, then I abandoned it. And for the past 2 years I’ve been an outspoken critic of Christianity. Now … well, the video says it all.


12 thoughts on “My Christian faith resurrected?

  1. Michael Reed says:

    That last line explained the whole thing in reasonable terms. That’s why you didn’t focus on it.

    I hope you’re doing well. I keep meaning to watch the Satanism video but I’m saving it to use as a podcast for when I’m playing a game so that I claim that I’m doing something semi-useful.

  2. Phil Henry says:

    Those things are terribly written and quite laughable, I don’t know who they think they’ll convince.

    I found one under the wiper of my car once which said on the front: LIFELONG SCIENTIST CONVERTS TO CHRISTIANITY! I thought, eh up, this will be interesting, I wonder what finally won him over and got him to throw all proof out the window. I opened it up and found one paragraph which basically read:

    “I was a scientist all my life. When people spoke to me of God I laughed at them. I had my scientific proof of evolution and that was all I needed. Then one day I realised there was a God, and I’ve never been happier.”

    That REALLY got me thinking. 😉

  3. Rodrigo says:

    There is “still” hope for you darryl… IN HELL!!!!

    You almost conviced me. Good acting skill man! I was sold
    untill I saw the out-takes…


    PS: im worried about your ‘satanic’ links in the last vids.
    Indulging the ego is self serving… but you already know that.


  4. Darryl Sloan says:

    Hi, Rodrigo.

    “PS: im worried about your ‘satanic’ links in the last vids.”

    Don’t be worried. I find the study of Satanism useful for purging the flimsy ideas from my own beliefs. But as a complete worldview in itself, Satanism doesn’t work for me.

    It may surprise you to know, regarding the recent video I made that meant so much to you, “Nature is undeniably adversarial,” those insights were straight out of Postmodern Satanism by Jason King.

    “Indulging the ego is self serving… but you already know that.”

    But the thing is, you will never escape your ego, no matter how hard you try. We aren’t meant to. The ego is what drives dualistic existence. This is what Eckhart Tolle and his like fail to see.

  5. adamskii says:

    I just want to add a few thoughts to this discussion. These are obviously just theories based on information that I’ve learned from other articles and videos, and also from personal experience too. Please excuse any grammar errors that may be in my post (there may be many), since I don’t have much time to proof read it all.

    1) We all live in a 100% belief system created reality. Our entire reality is created by our brain and we don’t all share the same reality, and to prove this, all you need to do is to take some LSD and see how different your reality will change, with just a simple change in brain chemistry. There is absolutely no difference in the persistant reality you are experiencing now (the “TRUE or REAL” reality), and the reality you experience occasionally when you are hallucinating on LSD (the “FAKE or NOT REAL” reality), since both types of reality are created by the same source… YOU!.

    There has been some proof of this “belief system created reality” through hypnosis, since some people who have been hypnotised were unable to see people who were stood right in front of them, if they were programmed to believe that no one was in the room with them.

    2) Due to the existence of the “Law Of Attraction”, only what your subconscious believes to be true will be manifested into your reality. This is why so many people can’t agree on what the “TRUE” and “REAL” reality is, because everyones reality is completely different from one another.

    I really do believe that there isn’t a crazy person on this planet, I think what these “CRAZY” people are experiencing is 100% real, at least for them anyway. The reason why we think they are crazy is because we don’t see or experience what they claim to be true, so we say they must be hallucinating, and that it’s not real. However, I think what they are experiencing is real, but it doesn’t manifest into “OUR” reality because we have completely different belief systems to that of the “CRAZY” person, and our reality is filtered to what our subconscious mind believes to be true.

    3) Due to what I’ve said above, I believe Heaven and Hell really do exist, and so does Jesus and Satan, etc. But these things will only be manifested into reality and experienced by those that believe that it is real. If a person believes that Hell really does exist and that they are going to goto Hell after they die for all of their sins (committing murder, stealing, rape, etc), etc, they will literally manifest the Hell reality for themselves in the afterlife, by believing that it exists.

  6. Rodrigo says:

    He darryl, thanks for the reply.

    I guess some ideas are solid from everywhere, even from religion or satanist, but
    the whole theory following is, for me, the greatest deception. I hope any truth
    seeker build his own “real” world by experience from solid experiences and
    mental reflection.

    Yes, ego is part of being human…. but, how many time we “be” human is for our
    conscience to decide or resist the brain stimulus. Sugar dependency is a bitch,
    imagine if you have cocaine or a crack problem… I keep a very solid picture
    of a heart beating on a monitor, where the spike is full conscience, while the
    rest is ego (or being human).

    Great catch, adamskii. Some people fight “reality” with drug inducing world
    changes… thats escapism for me.

    On your point 3: thats my view also, but sins are extremely controversial, and
    in the end I guess spiritual evolution goes into more abstract experience, with
    less and less “body” but much more content.. both individually and collectively.


  7. adamskii says:

    “Great catch, adamskii. Some people fight “reality” with drug inducing world
    changes… thats escapism for me.”

    Too true. The ironic thing about drugs is that no one actually needs to take them in order to hallucinate or feel good. It’s not the LSD that causes an hallucination, it’s the change in brain chemistry from taking the LSD that causes reality to change.

    With reprogramming the subconscious, it should be extremely easy for some people to start hallucinating on command without the need for drugs. A very simple way to do this is to repeat a trigger each time there is a chemical imbalance in the brain from taking LSD, etc. For example, crossing the fingers on the right hand whilst saying the word “hallucinate” five times. If a person does this trigger each and every time whilst under the influence of LSD, the subconscious will link the LSD state to the trigger the person is repeating, and then eventually LSD wont be needed in order to alter the persons brain chemistry, and to alter their reality.

    IMO, there is no such thing as “escapism”. At the end of the day, the only reason why you think the reality you are currently experiencing is “REAL”, is because it is a persistent reality. This persistant reality you are experiencing is created by your current unconscious beliefs and the stabilty of your brain chemistry. If either one of these two things were to be “permently” altered, then your reality would permently change also, and that would be your “REAL/TRUE” reality instead of the one your are currently experiencing.

    My theory is that the change in brain chemistry causes unconscious beliefs that are normally suppressed to be manifested into reality. These beliefs are usually suppressed because the person may have doubts whether it is true or not (ie. conflict), but as soon as the brain chemistry is altered these suppressed conflicting beliefs are then acted on and manifested into reality, until the brain chemistry is restored back to normal.

  8. A.P. Fuchs says:

    You fooled me for the first bit. Congratulations.

    I’m just sorry you felt the need to resort to mockery.

    Still praying for you, man. 🙂

  9. Darryl Sloan says:

    Hi again, A.P.

    I usually wince at those “ownage” videos, even the ones about religion, because an opportunity to educate the viewer is traded for ridicule, which serves only to raise heckles rather than to stimulate thought.

    So, what’s my defence here? I don’t have one. Guilty. I usually take the stance of educator, but in this instance, once I got the idea for the video, I’m afraid the devil got the better of me, and I couldn’t resist. 😉

    Let me put it this way: I’m having a little joke (for once). Most people saw the funny side. I do understand why you didn’t. Salvation is deeply serious matter to you, but that’s your cross to bear, not mine. Take care, buddy.

  10. A.P. Fuchs says:

    All in polite conversation:

    I got the joke, but knowing where you were coming from–talking deep down stuff here–is what robbed it of its humor for me.

    Yet, when you stop and think about it–and believe me, I have–the Gospel message is one of fear. Absolutely. It speaks directly to the heart of the human being–which is why it stirs up such a strong response in people, positive or negative–and confronts us with what we truly are: sinners, each one of us breakers of God’s Law. No one likes being confronted with that, even those who are willing to say, “Hey, I messed up.”

    At the same time, it’s also one of hope. As you once put it, a “get out of jail free” card. But it’s more than that. It is about grace and mercy and a show of love toward someone like you or I who are completely undeserving of it. It’s about being restored to the way we were supposed to be as human beings, that is, at peace with our Creator no different than an estranged child reconciled with his parents.

    The thing about the Gospel is it is confrontational. I’m sure you’ve heard it before, but there’s far more to God than just love, kindness and all that mushy feel-good stuff. Part of who He is is justice, righteousness, holy. That’s just how it is.

    I’ve wrestled with God, too, and have more stories about that than there’s room here for, so I get doubting, or the need for demonstration and all that stuff. Then I came to a point where I just had to say, “I might not understand all of this–and, really, who can? For if God is indeed eternal and infinite, you can spend the rest of your life educating me and that’d be like analyzing a single drop of water in a bucket full of His character–I got to just accept that He is what He is and move on.” And when I came to that point, things became even more clear. Some reading this might call that “ignorance” or “willful blindness,” as Christians are often accused of in terms of the ways of the world, but there’s a difference between willful blindness and just putting an issue to rest.

    The Bible is true when it says, “Whoever has my commands and obeys them, he is the one who loves me. He who loves me will be loved by my Father, and I too will love him and show myself to him.” – John 14:21 (emphasis mine)

    It’s true, and I didn’t need the Bible to tell me this. As previously stated, Christianity would exist just fine without the Bible (it did for a good chunk of the first century) as it’s not about religion but interaction with a Person.

    Salvation isn’t my cross to bear. That cross was already bore for me.

    It ain’t over till it’s over, my friend. 🙂

  11. Darryl Sloan says:

    Hi, A.P.

    “The thing about the Gospel is it is confrontational. I’m sure you’ve heard it before, but there’s far more to God than just love, kindness and all that mushy feel-good stuff. Part of who He is is justice, righteousness, holy. That’s just how it is.”

    No, A.P. that’s not how it is; it’s just how it seems to you, having decided that the Bible is telling you the truth about God.

    One of the things I’m noticing nowadays is to take note of when I anthropomorphise God. Even when I use the term “Infinite Consciousness” as my particular label for God, I have to realise that it’s an anthropomorphism. I see that I have a mind, and so I conceptualise God as a mind, when really, mind is just my mechanism for interacting with the physical world. God is far too trascendent to be a mere mind. I have to realise that when I attempt to conceptualise that transcendent “thing” beyond time and space, I will never do more than scratch the surface.

    Religion (Christianity no exception) anthropomorphises all the time. It invents God in man’s image. And so we end up with a God who has all of the same petty concerns as us, a God who serves our particular needs for our particular generation. Once, we needed a jealous, territorial God who would serve our needs as an advancing nation (ancient Israel). Now we have a different anthrpomorphism to suit our present needs. But you think the anthropomorphism is the reality, when it’s merely an aid to help a mind grasp a concept that is beyond its comprehension.

    This idea of a transcendent God peering down from heaven, taking great offence at our squabbling, this is small-minded nonsense. You want to know what a real offense against God is? It’s people like you who claim to represent God on earth, who presume to know all about him/it, just becuase you’ve read a particular man-made book that claims to speak with authority about God. Of course, when I say this is an offense against God, I’m merely jesting for dramatic effect; I wouldn’t want to make the same mistake of putting God in a box to suit my needs.

    “Salvation isn’t my cross to bear. That cross was already bore for me.”

    What I meant was, the fact that you have to believe that people you love will end up in hell if they don’t come round to your way of thinking – that’s your cross to bear.

  12. Kalvin says:

    Dear Fuchs,
    People believe what they believe because it makes sense to them, they can’t help it. I can’t help what I believe. I could say I believe in Christianity or atheism, especially if given an ultimatum, but I am simply incapable of sincerely believing something like that(at this point anyways). Really isn’t anybody’s wrongdoing. People may not be able to understand why other people believe what they do, but God is no dummy, he knows all the facts. I can’t imagine that God would send certain people to hell, he knows their thoughts. If God was that person, he would believe what they believe also. haha. Seriously though. Just like you believe what you believe for your own reasons, so does everybody else. I admit it’s frustrating when people don’t agree with me(because I think I’m right) but that doesn’t mean they are going to hell for it. Just like a straight man can’t help but be attracted to a woman, a gay man can’t help but be attracted to a guy. God did it, I think when we condemn other people, we are actually condemning our creator. The force that made you is the force that made me, in that case, learning how to love ourselves means learning how to love everyone else, which means learning how to love our creator. For me to hate you would be for me to hate the thing that created you. If that makes any sense. Sometimes its hard to tell what makes sense and what doesnt with this kind of stuff. haha. That’s why I post my thoughts for feedback.
    I can’t imagine a world created by god in which anyone would not be allowed in heaven.
    We are all connected to the “source”, I would imagine we all merge back to the source after death.

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