Last week I talked a little about how I felt my faith in God could sometimes reduce my creativity. Well, I’ve recently been sensing the exact opposite in my life. I’ve been spending way too much time in front of my computer – writing, video editing, DVD authoring – and way too little time in spiritual things. I had gotten into a habit of regularly praying and reading my Bible at home after dinner, but this has been slipping.
Lately I’ve noticed my feelings for God waning, and I’ve been dwelling too much on my own personal ambitions – the temporary things of this life, in other words. Worse than that, I’ve been having a lot more problems with sin. I felt a sort of anxiety about this, because it’s not that long since I’ve been really close to God. But of course, I only have myself to blame. It was me who chose how I invested my time over the last while. But, man, it’s way too easy to slip into this trap!
Earlier tonight in church we were studying the coming of the Holy Spirit at Pentecost (Book of Acts), where tongues of fire rested on the Christians heads and they spoke about God in different languages. It got me excited again about experiencing God in my life, and when I got home I forced every distraction out of my mind and knelt down to have a serious time of prayer (as opposed to the hurried three-minute episodes I’d been doing). Of course, it was exactly what I needed.
Thing are going to get better fast. I’m determined not to end up as one of those half-hearted Christians who make their way through life with a little bit of religion tagged on, and never really know anything of the reality of God, and never really do anything for him.